Locoleader

Hey there old friends, I'm back (even though I technically never left). A lot has happened in the past year and a half since my last update journal. But since I don't feel like typing a god damn dissertation just to fill you all in about my recent life endeavors and because I know most of you don't give a shit, I'll just give you the abridged version.

#1 - work

It took a while but I am no longer unemployed. I now have a well paying job that requires me to work 12 hours a day, only two days a week. So now I have 5 consecutive days to do whatever the fuck I want without worrying finances.

#2 - Art

I've recently decided to dive into the world of digital art. Why? partly because I like it and it's kinda fun, but mainly because I still have plans on turning my story (Grim Stone) into a comic series. However, at this time, I don't have enough money to start commissioning an artist to draw the comic for me. So a few months ago I started watching drawing tutorials on YouTube and started practicing. so in about a year or so, I can start illustrating the comic myself. It won't look nice but I just need to get skilled enough to convey the story.

So that about it, not only do I have steady employment but I'm now into digital art and am going to be drawing the Grim stone comic myself. Also I want to mention that, I'm going to be posting it as a web series first and if it gains any popularity, I'll invest in a redraw and have it published into an actual comic book.

I'll close this journal by adding that, in the last few months I've come up with about 6 more ideas for web comics. So while I'm working on finishing the story for Grim stone, I'll be posting some other comics. Hell I'm even thinking about bringing back NaR (my last web comic)

But that's enough about me, I hope you all have been doing great.

Hey guys long time no contact. Well since my birthday just passed and I've been through a lot in the past few months I figured now is a good time to tell you guys some of the recent high lights in my life.

1st Highlight -  I lost my job at the end of May. I didn't get fired or anything, the store that I worked at was shut down. But luckily since I've worked there for 2 and a half years and I never took any vacations, my severance check were pretty good and I'm able to pay my bills for the next few months. And to top it off I'm eligible for unemployment so I'm not really sweating the no-job thing. Also I'm pretty sure I'll find another one soon.

2nd Highlight - I finally got around to posting videos on my YT account. 3 are up, only one of they are any good. Right now I'm working on my 2nd review video which will come out ... whenever I stop procrastinating. So no time soon

3rd and main Highlight - My story Grim 6 is doing really well. In the past month alone I've had plenty of good ideas to make the story better. I haven't actually began writing the story yet. Right now I'm just doing the story board for the entire series and the reason why I'm doing this is because I'm the type of person where I'll post a chapter and later on I'll have a better idea and end up rewriting the same chapter again. So for now I'm just outlining the whole series before actually typing the final drafts.

Also I've hit a couple of road blocks. Right now, there are parts of the story that are a bit convoluted. So now I'm just trying to come up with simple and creative ideas to make things easier and more interesting.  

AND I'm working on another story called beach daze. I figured since I'll be unemployed this year I'll have plenty of time to participate in NaNoWriMo, and Beach Daze will be the story I'll be submitting

I hope you guys have had a good year so far. And good luck with the rest of the year. 

Update 1-27-15

Update time!

Hey watchers, before you read through this long piece of shit journal i have to tell you something. I have separated this journal into two parts. The first part is me telling you about some of the upcoming projects i am going to be working on. The second part is a bit more "depressing".

I'm telling you all this because i know that some people dont like reading about other people problems hear them complain. If you're that kind of person i dont blame you. There are times when i get sick of hearing people complain that's why i'm giving you an out. If you just want to hear about possible upcoming projects sit back and then enjoy the first part.

Pt 1

Grim - This is probably my most favorite thing that i'm working on. I first came up with the idea back when i was 19 (I'm turning 23 this year). Over the years i stopped working on it but for the past few months i've been making alot of revisions and i think i'm finally happy with the end product. However, i won't be posting any up the new chapters until around October. That's because i originally came up with the idea of it during Halloween time and the series will sort of have a Halloween theme. Til then if you guys want to know a little more about the Series, like how the overall premise is, i still have some old chapters posted and I'll be posting a little more info about at a later date.

NaR - NaR, as some of you may know, is a comic series that i had that evolved into a story like Grim but i stopped doing both of those things for unknown reasons. The NaR stories wont be making a comeback for a very long time; however i'm seriously thinking about bringing back the comic series. I came to this decision because i want to do things on this site other than occasional journal entries and NaR was alot of fun to do back in high school so i'm just going to bring them back for a while until the Grim stories start getting posted

Youtube - I made several journal entries in the past about me starting a YT channel and i have. But, just like with NaR and Grim i just stopped doing the videos because my laziness and apathy got the best of me. But the thought that i started something and didnt finish it, is driving me crazy. So i'm going to finish what i started and finish the Let's play videos that i originally started with.

And after that i might start working on another project. It's something i've been really thinking about doing for the longest time but i dont want to say what it is quite yet because i'm still not sure if i'm going to be doing it. So for now let's just say that there's a Super Secret Project in the works and if it goes through i'll make an announcement about it.

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Pt 2 - the sad part

I've recently been going through a small bout of depression  but i'm slowly managing.

Why am i depressed? For many reasons, the biggest reason is that i'm still not doing stand up. I know i've bitched about it many many  times in past journals but it's really something that has been weighing down on my soul for months and it only gets worse with each passing day. I recently started watching a video series on YouTube called "We're still here by LittleKuriboh". The videos are about how he was recently diagnosed with depression, how it has affected his productivity and what he's doing to get out of his rut. Which sort of helped me come to a similar realization about me and my stand up "career". I'd always procrastinate writing any new jokes and when i do sit down to write i'd feel really pathetic and useless when things don't click in the first 5 minutes or so.

Which is honestly the main reason why i haven't been on stage in almost a year. It's not because i'm afraid of bombing, i'm more afraid of bombing because i didnt work hard enough on my jokes (if that makes any since). So that's why i've come up with a minor solution to this problem. I;m starting to get into the habit of working on one joke a day. It doesn't sound like much but it's a baby step in the right direction.

Hey guys, time for another Locoleader update!

Comedy - Stand up, as of right now, is basically non-existent. I haven't been on stage since June and I haven't written any new jokes. And all of this makes me feel a little sad because stand up is a dream of mine and yet I've tossed it aside because I'm too lazy and too scared to go back. But I haven't given up hope. A little while ago I started reading a book called "Don't wear shorts on stage", which is a stand-up comedy how-to-guide. It doesn't really help me all that much but it has helped me to not feel as bad about not being as adamant as I should be.

Writing - Over the past few months or so I've really been giving this some thought and I've finally come to a decision. I'm going to go back to writing the Grim stories. Lately I've been watching a lot of great TV shows and reading a lot of great books and they sort-of reignited my desire to tell great stories.

However, since I work in retail I don't really have time to really work on my stand up or on Grim. With Christmas right around the corner and Black Friday at the end of this week, my job has me doing a lot of running around. And to make things worse, after work and on my days off I'm usually so tired that I just spend all the time, that I'm not working, in bed sleeping. So all I can really do it work a little bit at a time until after the holidays.

I've already made a pledge to myself that,  after the new years, I'll start going to open mic nights at least once a month until my stand up career actually starts showing some promise. And I'll try to come out with the Grim Prologue by the end of December and I'll TRY to start posting one chapter a month on this account after new years.  I know all of this doesn't sound like much at all, but I'm just trying to take all of this slow.

That's going to be it for this update. I would have liked to have gone into more detail about Grim and what new ideas i have for it, but I don't want to spend more time talking about it instead of working on it. So I'll do the Grim updates as the chapters start rolling out.